~Parental guidance advised for younger audiences due to the topic of this blog post~
This week has been National Suicide Prevention week and because of that I felt led by God to write this blog post. I created a YouTube video this morning, but because my words sometimes come out better on paper I am writing this as well. ;)
When I think about the statistics of suicide my heart aches inside. It breaks me to know that some people have pain so deep that they think suicide is their only way out.
I don't pretend to know your pain. I don't claim to know what you're going through or how your heart has been broken. I don't know the situation you are in right now in your life. But I do know that ending your life won't fix things. It's not the only way out and it won't rescue you.
There are so many things I wish I could say to you, the one who has attempted suicide or who contemplates self-harm. So many thing I wish I could encourage you with. As I was making my video earlier, the words would not come to me to form what I really wanted to say. I would much rather just sit with you and wrap you in my arms, letting you know that you are loved and you are not alone.
But during the making of my video God whispered to my heart so clearly that I knew it was Him.
Tell them I love them.
The words made sense and they were so true. I was trying to come up with all the right, beautiful words to say, when all along they were right in front of me. And they were so simple.
He loves you.
He asked me to break into your day right now, just to tell you that.
You might laugh right about then or shake your head in disbelief. You might push it away because you don't believe it could possibly be true. Everyone who ever said they loved you may have walked out of your life and abandoned you. It may be hard for you to trust.
But here's the truth, beautiful, precious soul.
He loves you right now more than anyone else ever could. More than you could ever fathom or comprehend. More than you could ever know. And because He loves you that deeply, He will never walk out. He will never disappoint you. He will never leave you. You are His. His masterpiece. His chosen. He chose you. He wants you.
The God who made you loves you so much and He wants to be with you so badly that He paid the ultimate price. He died for you. Nothing you do could ever make Him love you less. He died for you and loved you at your worst. And the beautiful secret? He's always going to want you and love you because He thinks you're priceless.
And you are.
Your life is beautiful. And simply priceless. There is no one else alive on this earth who will ever be you or come close to being you. You are perfectly unique.
Place your hand on your heart for a moment, precious one. Feel your heart beating. Do you feel it? Every time it beats it's whispering to you. Whispering that you still have a holy mission to fulfill and that you still have a story to tell. Whispering that someone out there needs you to keep living. So every time you feel like giving up or walking away from life, promise me something, won't you? Promise me you'll place your hand back on your heart and feel it beating. And listen to the whisper of God reminding you why you are still here.
Take a chance on His love tonight, sweet soul. Take a chance on Him and embrace His love even if it's hard and even if you're scared. He will never disappoint you. It will be the one love that will change your life. I'm not saying things will immediately get better, because they might not. I'm not saying everything will become perfect, because it won't. I'm saying that when you have His love, you have hope right in the middle of the pain and suffering. Hope that at the end, there is a miracle waiting for you.
Tomorrow may be the best day of your life. Won't you wait to see, please?
I don't want you to die tonight. We need you. Stay here, please.
No matter what, never give up.
The world needs to see that gorgeous smile of yours again tomorrow.
Hang on just a little bit longer...please.
~If you have ever contemplated suicide or attempted self-harm I beg you to please get help. Reach out to someone and find help. I especially encourage you to check out www.twloha.com.
You are not alone. We're in this together. <3~
Isabella Morganthal (20) is a homeschool high school graduate who loves Jesus with all of her heart. She is a drummer, writer, creative arts director, and modern-day abolitionist.