“Each time He said, ‘My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9 When I was eight years old, I decided that I wanted to be a writer. Growing up, I normally would go back and forth between all the different things I wanted to be (typically based off whatever book I was reading at the time). However nothing ever changed how I felt about writing. I always knew I was meant to write. So when I was sixteen I wrote a book that I knew God wanted me to publish. I knew He had given me this gift for a reason and I felt strongly that He wanted to use this new book for His purpose and glory. But I was downright terrified. And the truth was that I did not believe I was a “good enough” writer to ever be published. I didn't believe that I was even good enough to be a writer. I was extremely insecure about my ability to write good material. I wrestled with God over it. What if people didn’t like what I had to share? What if I made a fool of myself? What if I didn’t sell any books? On and on the list of “what if’s” ran through my mind. What if I’m just plain not good enough? And then I read that verse from 2 Corinthians 12. Jesus says, My grace is all you need, and My power works best in your weakness. Yes, I am weak here. My insecurities have convinced me that I am not a good enough writer. My insecurities have convinced me that God can’t use me. My insecurities have made my faith so weak. Maybe your insecurities have done the same for you, whatever it may be. Maybe you too have wondered if you’re strong enough for whatever God is asking you to do. Maybe your insecurities have made you question who you are. Let me assure your heart that your insecurity is a liar. If your insecurity has told you that you are not good enough for what God is leading you towards, it is lying. If your insecurity has told you that God cannot use you, it is lying. If your insecurity has told you that no one loves you, it's a liar because the God of the universe is crazy about you. Here’s the truth: in Jesus Christ, through His grace, He makes you more than enough for whatever He is calling you towards, because His strength is made perfect in your weakness. You may feel weak. You may feel like you aren’t big enough for whatever God is asking of you. But know this…that’s okay. You don’t have to be strong to be used by Him. When I was eighteen I finally took that leap of faith and published my book. The adventure has been amazing. And it has only made me more confident of the truth that God loves to use our weakness for His glory. He loves to show up in the places we are most weak. And He loves to quiet our insecurities and remind us that in Him, He makes our future secure. So that insecurity holding you back from whatever He’s asked you to do? Kick it to the curb and you move forward anyway. What insecurity in your life has been keeping you from the adventure of following God’s plan for you? What is one step you can take today to move forward, even in spite of your insecurity?
Rachel
3/14/2019 09:35:43 pm
Beautiful post! I can so relate to this. His grace is truly sufficient! What a wonderful post...speaks to my insecurities in a very profound way. I've been writing since I was 7 ( similar story) and have been encouraged to pursue it by many people over the years (I am now 19). However, I feel unsure about my abilities...and I only want to write words which will do damage to darkness and bring sole glory to the Lord. I feel like my abilities will never be able to do that adequately (of course no one can do it like the Word Itself <3 ). I just feel a bit lost direction-wise. I have billions of ideas...but I want it to count for eternity. Comments are closed.
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