"And He was withdrawn from them about a stone's throw, and He knelt down and prayed, saying, 'Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.'"
I've thought about this verse a lot in the last few weeks.
How easy it is to dream about the future and make our plans, living as if we know exactly what is going to happen tomorrow or even in the next moment. We plan our schedules and days and can even assume that we are in control of them.
But then the unexpected happens and shatters our plans or our schedules. Our dreams fall through and things don't go our way. We have to do something or walk through something we don't want to, rather than getting our way.
The last few weeks, I have planned out a dream that I have too and I acted as if I was in control of the situation and could figure everything out. But when it hit me right in the face that this dream might never happen, I quickly realized that I wasn't in control at all. And that hurt. Because this dream meant (and still means) everything to me. Losing it would devastate me.
And yet I read this verse in Luke.
Some of the final words spoken by Jesus before His crucifixion. A prayer to His Father to save Him from the torture He was about to endure. Yet He still prays...
Not My will, but Yours.
Do we trust God's will enough to pray that too? Do we trust that His will and way is so much better than our own, even if it doesn't seem that way in the moment? Do we trust that He loves us and His will is to be closer with us, no matter what that means?
I know it's hard when you lose a dream. I know it's hard when schedules change and we don't understand why we are no longer in control of a situation.
But what we need to understand is that we were never in control to begin with.
He is God. We aren't. He is control and we are not. He knows what is best and we do not.
So I challenge you as one of my very dear friends challenged me just recently.
Pray for His will to be done. No matter what.
God's will was for Jesus to endure the crucifixion and intense suffering and ultimately die. But this was His will, because in the end, all of Heaven and earth rejoiced and celebrated when He rose from that grave three days later. This was His will because it was the only way for us to be with Him forever and He loved us that much. Yet the disciples, Mary, and the others probably didn't understand God's will when Jesus died on that cross. Right in the middle of it, they probably didn't understand until the end, three days later when He rose again.
So you might not understand God's will now, but trust Him.
It will turn out amazing.
Let's pray together, friends.
Thy will be done.